A  Visit To Absurdistan What Happened to  the Spain Where I Was Born?
                    
A few months ago, I was interviewed by a  short, roundish man, a Spanish TV host I had never seen but who every child in  Spain knows: Jordi Évole. He used to be the sidekick of a late-night talk show  host. We met on a cold, wet Saturday morning at the Brandenburg Gate in Berlin.
Évole  asked me to talk about Germany -- as the son of Spanish immigrants, but mostly  as a German. He wanted me to explain what we, the Germans, are doing right and  they, the Spaniards, are doing wrong. Évole hosts one of the most successful  programs on Spanish television. He is both an investigative journalist and a  comedian.
What did he expect me to say? That you  can't take an economy seriously when it's based on sun and oranges and the  overdevelopment of the Mediterranean coast? That Spanish football clubs  shouldn't owe €750 million ($915 million) in back taxes? That, according  to the latest PISA study by the Organization for Economic Cooperation and  Development comparing international education systems, Spain's schoolchildren  have not improved, despite record tax revenues before the crisis?
I've recently thought a lot about that  conversation, about the Spanish economic crisis and about whether I really know  what things look like in my native Spain.
My parents are former farmers from  Andalusia who went to Germany in the 1970s and worked in a tire factory in  Hanau near Frankfurt until their retirement. My father went to school for four  years. There were no textbooks. The teacher used an old encyclopedia. My dad  made it to volume D, or perhaps F. In any case, the education his country  offered him was a disgrace. He emigrated when he was 17.
I was born in Spain, I have a Spanish name,  I speak at a Spanish pace, I have a Spanish passport, and I'm happy that Spain  won the European Championship. But I live in Germany, where I went to school  and work today.
My most intense memories of Spain go back  more than 25 years, even though I've visited since then. They are the glorified  summer memories of childhood. My family was part of that caravan of guest  workers (the wave of immigrants who came to Germany during the postwar years)  who would load up the Opel and drive home to Spain every year, first through  France, and then along the Mediterranean coast to my parents' village. We would  spend 30 hours in the car, stopping only at gas stations, with a chain-smoking  father at the wheel. The back seat was for me, my two brothers and one  suitcase. I loved those trips.
Revisiting Spain
After the conversation with Jordi Évole, I  decided to make the trip again; driving along the coast as we had done before,  but taking more time to talk to people. I wanted them to explain to me what had  happened to Spain, a country that has been driving me to insanity for some  time. I couldn't even say exactly why. Could it be the inability to produce  something meaningful, the disgusting overdevelopment, the audacity with which  Spaniards expect help from the bailout fund?
The first real Spanish big city I can  remember is Barcelona. That's where my trip begins. Back then, it wasn't a city  of boutique hotels and tapas in the Barri Gòtic Gothic Quarter or of Romance  studies students learning Spanish and searching for meaning in Barcelona. In my  childhood, it was a city without a beltway. It hadn't been built yet. My father  hated the anarchy of traffic, SEAT cars, the Guardia Civil, which, in the early  1980s, had lost Franco's protection but not its disgusting arrogance. Despite  the heat, my mother forced us to roll up the windows. Confidence tricksters  were waiting for German cars at the traffic lights, she said. I hated  Barcelona.
It's different in 2012. I arrive after  Spanish Prime Minister Mariano Rajoy has prepared Europe for the possibility  that rescuing Spanish banks could cost €100 billion ($123 billion).  Previously, he had claimed that Spain would never need help.
I watch the news on television in my hotel  room. As usual, it consists of two parts: the horror film and the fairy-tale  hour. More and more depositors are emptying their accounts, the Spanish  autonomous community of Castile-La Mancha is closing 70 schools, unemployment  is almost 25 percent -- that's the horror film. In the fairy-tale hour, they  talk about the Spanish national football team. 
After watching the news in Spain for a while,  you understand why half the airtime is devoted to sports. If it weren't, people  would go mad. Everything revolves around the crisis. Really everything. A DIY  superstore advertises 200 jobs and gets 12,000 applications. Academics conceal  their degrees on job applications in order to compete with people with inferior  qualifications. There are street battles in Asturias between striking miners  and the police. Sales of safes are on the rise.
This isn't news. It's terror.
Finding the Crisis in Barcelona
Barcelona is full of tourists. The number  of overnight stays increased last year. The cafés around Plaça Catalunya still  serve overpriced coffee, while the police chase away beggars. To find the  crisis, you have to walk a few blocks away.
At an intersection on Avinguda Diagonal, I  encounter Pedro Panlador, a slight man who has positioned himself in front of a  Bankia branch. He wants to storm the bank. A few like-minded people have joined  him. They called the offices of newspapers so that they would report on their  protest, but the papers declined. Banks are being stormed all over Spain at the  moment.
Bankia, a bank from Madrid, evicted  Panlador from his condominium because he could no longer make his loan  payments. In the first three months of this year, the occupants of 200  apartments and houses were evicted every day throughout Spain.
Panlador, born in Colombia, has lived in  Barcelona for 12 years. He currently has €242,000 in debt. He was a  chauffeur before the crisis. Now he's been unemployed for over two years.
Pedestrians walk by, some encouraging him  and some applauding. No one thinks it's wrong to be standing in front of a bank  and calling the employees "criminals." Panlador says that he intends  to remain "peaceful" and that he only wants to "speak with the  director."
Bankia lost €3 billion in 2011, and  now the bank needs more than €20 billion to avoid going into bankruptcy  and bringing down the Spanish financial system with it. The last CEO was  Rodrigo Rato, who served as finance minister under former Prime Minister José  María Aznar. Rato was also managing director of the International Monetary Fund  (IMF) until 2007. It's possible that the IMF will soon have to rescue Spain. It  sounds like a joke.
Panlador and his boys are ready to begin  storming the bank. They're doing this for the first time. Panlador has already  camped out in front of a Bankia branch before, but he feels that storming a  bank makes a greater impression. He musters up courage and walks up to the  entrance, where he sees that the branch has a security door and a doorbell.
He rings the doorbell.
Bankia doesn't open the door.
Panlador turns to the others. They look a  little clueless. Finally, someone blows a whistle.
Panlador slaps a few stickers onto the  glass. The banks should stop suing delinquent customers and evicting them from  their apartments, the stickers read. Spain, it seems, has become a country of  sad protests.
Panlador takes a few steps back. Personal  bankruptcy doesn't exist in Spain. His debt of €242,000 will stay with  him his whole life. "I'm tired," he says.
One would think that protests need the  occasional minor success, something that offers hope that the struggle is  worthwhile. One would also think that it's important to know who the enemy is.
But who is to blame? Bankia, because it  gave a quarter-million-euro loan to a man who was making €940 a month  after taxes? Or Panlador, because he took out the loan? No one forced him to do  it. Perhaps both are to blame.
Or maybe it comes down to that sea of  opportunities. There was construction underway and money being made everywhere.  There was cheap money, and banks were practically giving it away, there was  housing that seemed to finance itself, and there were jobs galore. 
All of this transformed the Spaniards into  gambling addicts and the country into a casino. People no longer had to suffer  the indignity of a neighbor having a house in Conil on the Costa de la Luz  while they had only a weekend cottage on the outskirts of the city. Who would  have predicted that it would all end with people like Pedro Panlador standing  in front of a bank and being denied entry because of a doorbell?
I shake  his hand and wish him luck. Barcelona is a beautiful city, much more so than  Berlin, Frankfurt or Munich, despite the "For Sale" signs hanging from  balconies and the gold dealers opening up shop everywhere to sell the jewelry  of desperate Spaniards. 
To me, the city feels like the wife of a  factory manager who refuses to believe that the company is bankrupt. She still  has her fur coat, her diamond ring and her china -- but everyone knows it'll be  over soon. 
The unemployment rate in Barcelona rose  from 7 to 17.7 percent last year. Barcelona is Spain's richest city, and yet  17.7 percent of its working population is unemployed.
A  Visit To Absurdistan What Happened to  the Spain Where I Was Born?
            I get into the car and leave Barcelona. I  have an appointment in Sabadell, a former textile-manufacturing town. I'm going  to meet Antonio, a family man, who has also lost his home. But he doesn't want  to storm a bank. Instead, he is truly defending himself. He has occupied an  apartment.
It's early afternoon, and Antonio is  standing in the door to the apartment. He knows what I'm thinking. Antonio  looks like George Clooney.
"I know," he says, "everyone  says that."
Antonio steps into the narrow hallway and  shows me the tiny bathroom, an eat-in kitchen with a large refrigerator, and a  bedroom in which there are two beds, each with a stuffed animal on it.
"That's it," says Antonio. Two  rooms on the ground floor, his new home. There are several boxes stacked in the  bathroom.
"How long have you been here?"
"Two days."
"How did you get in?"
"I can't say, but I used to be a  welder. My girls will be sleeping here for the first time tomorrow."
Antonio has two daughters, 14- and  17-years-old. The younger one goes to school, and the older one is in a  training program to become a hairdresser. But because of the crisis, she isn't  being paid, and she's also the only one from her former class who has found a  position at all. Antonio pushes aside a stuffed-animal duck and sits down on  the bed.
Antonio Zamora Hidalgo, 47, a quiet type,  began his fight against the system two days ago. He worked in a metal factory  for more than 20 years and, for 12 years, he paid the mortgage payments for his  apartment to BBVA, a major Spanish bank. When he stopped making the payments,  he lost everything. 
There is no equivalent of Germany's Hartz  IV welfare payments for the long-term unemployed in Spain. There is, however, a  rule stating that the borrower cannot simply return a property to the lender to  settle his debt. In the worse case, he stands to lose the property and still  owe the bank the full purchase price.
Hidalgo had run out of options. He didn't  know what to do with the children. His wife left him because she couldn't cope  with what happened to the family. Antonio turned to PAH, a local initiative in  Barcelona, where he was told that 20 percent of apartments in Spain are empty.  One of them was the apartment in Sabadell, which hadn't been occupied in five  years.
The small apartment is on a quiet side  street in the Can n'Oriac neighborhood. It belongs to Caixa Catalunya, one of  those megalomaniacal Spanish provincial savings banks that had issued mortgage  loans indiscriminately in recent years and had to be bailed out with taxpayer  money.
"Is this what you imagined it would be  like?" Antonio asks.
I look around the tiny room. The two beds  take up almost all the space.
"If you're going to occupy an  apartment illegally, why not a bigger one?" I ask.
Antonio laughs. He wasn't referring to the  apartment, he says, but to the situation in Spain.
"I can tell you what the situation is  like," says Antonio. "The situation is that guys like me are  occupying apartments."
Who's at fault now, I wonder as I'm driving  on the highway. The man has never been in trouble with the police. He doesn't  drink, isn't an anarchist or a leftist, and he doesn't even watch the news. Now  he's a squatter. Maybe he was simply unlucky and was dragged down when the  snowballing system of cheap loans and rising real estate prices they called the  Spanish economic miracle collapsed, a period described in a Time cover  story titled "Spain Rocks."
A €150 Million Airport  That's Never Been Used
I reach Castellón, a somewhat sleepy  coastal city on the Mediterranean, with a nice park and a phenomenally ugly  department store.
As a child, I liked Castellón, the last  place where we stopped to get gas before reaching our village. I'm here because  I want to know why Castellón built an airport from which no aircraft has ever  taken off, an airport that cost €150 million in a city that's only 65  kilometers from Valencia, which already has an airport that's much too big for  the region.
I leave the Autopista del Mediterráneo and  drive along the CV-10 toward the Castellón airport. The CV-10 is the best  highway I've ever driven on. The asphalt is perfect, the signs are new, and  there is grass in the median. After about half an hour, I'm standing in front  of a fence arguing with a security guard. The man reaches for his radio and  says: "Serra 1 to Serra 2, we have a code 3!"
You can trigger a code 3 by asking a guard  at the fence whether you can take a look at the airport from up close, an  airport that was built with taxpayer money and was officially opened on March  25, 2011.
I get out of the car. Behind me is a large  sculpture standing at the access road to the airport. A good friend of a local  politician is still working on the piece, which is unbelievably ugly and  reportedly cost €300,000. The guard talks into his radio. From where I'm  standing, I can see the tower, some of the 3,000 parking spaces and a portion  of the 2,700-meter (8,856-foot) runway.
"I gave your license plate number to  the police," says the guard. I nod and think to myself that the Castellón  airport isn't even the most pointless -- and certainly not the most costly --  airport in Spain. An airport was built in Ciudad Real, 160 kilometers from  Madrid, at a cost of €1 billion. It now serves small private aircraft.
For years, Castellón suffered from the fact  that it wasn't as important, rich or well-known as Valencia and Alicante, the  other two major cities in the region. Someone hit upon the idea of changing  that by building 17 golf courses. Seventeen 18-hole golf courses translate into  a lot of golfers, hence the airport. The golf courses never materialized. 
The city behaved like a microcosm of Spain  as a whole. Spain didn't want to be Europe's little brother. It wanted real  airports and real highways. The days were gone when people like my father would  arrive at a German train station in jackets too thin for the climate. The new  Spain could play football, and it had companies like global telecommunications  giant Telefónica and world-famous chefs like Ferran Adrià.
I leave the guard standing where he is and  return to the highway. I'll be in my parents' village in three hours. A small  detour takes me past a large construction site on which the Spanish railroad  system is building another high-speed line. The country has more high-speed  rail lines than Germany or France.
I ask myself what it must have been like to  be a politician in the boom years, a period of senseless intoxication and time  without measure. To be re-elected, many politicians had to have something to  show for themselves, a project, and preferably one built of stone and concrete.  Playing fields, theaters, swimming pools and streetcars were popping up  everywhere. The economy had gone mad, and so had politicians. But the democracy  was fully functional. Spaniards could have asked where all the money was coming  from, and why roads were improving and trains were getting faster, while their  children were doing worse in school. They could have elected different  politicians, more level-headed ones. I firmly believe that every village, every  town and every province got exactly the politician it deserved.
The Journey's End
I reach my parents' village, Huércal-Overa,  now a city of 18,000 people in a province called Almería. The area is known as  the desert of Europe, dry and unbearably hot in the summer. The German director  Bully Herbig filmed "Der Schuh des Manitu," or the "Manitou's  Shoe," a comedy remake of Germany's Manitou series of Wild West films in  Almería. This is where my journey ends.
We used to stay at my grandparents' house a  little outside of town. There was no toilet or electricity. That was in the  1980s. Today the city has a public theater, a new Plaza Mayor, an indoor public  pool, a new outdoor pool, a zoo, a park, a newly designed downtown and rows of  half-finished houses.
My parents' house is at the northern end of  the city, a plain and somewhat ugly home. They put all of their savings into  this 130-square-meter (1,400-square-foot) house. The only luxurious feature is  an absurdly oversized air-conditioning unit on the roof, which can easily  transform our living room into a polar landscape.
I've asked my parents to call a few of my  family members, so that they can tell me about their lives in Spain.
My Uncle Juan has been working on a farm  for 20 years. He plants tomatoes, walks through the greenhouses with fertilizer  and works during the harvest. It's a brutal job, but he's never complained  about it in my presence. Before the boom, he was making about €3 an hour,  and now, about 10 years later, he still earns less than €4 an hour. He  drove a small car before the crisis, and he still drives one today. Juan says  that he didn't need the crisis to know that he isn't part of wealthy Europe. He  just happens to be poor, he says, because he's from the south.
My cousin Pepe was a different story. As a  teenager, he sold shoes at local weekly markets, and later French fries and  peanuts. He eventually got a truck-driver's license and tried his hand as an  independent trucker. He would have become a gold prospector 150 years ago.
Then came the boom years, the perfect time  for people like Pepe, people who didn't want to remain poor. At first he drove  his own truck, and then he expanded to two, three and eventually eight or nine  trucks. There was plenty of work, and he was constantly attracting new  customers: a brewery, a auto-parts supplier, a wholesaler's temporary  warehouse. His wife gave him a black Audi A6 for his 40th birthday. I was  invited to the party. They had made it. The house was paid off, they were driving  a German car and their daughter had just started medical school.
Pepe was one of the funniest people I know.  No one could tell more dirty jokes. That Pepe no longer exists.
My cousin is a sick man today. My father  paid for his last treatment with a psychiatrist. Pepe doesn't tell anyone in  the family how much debt he has, but it must be millions, and we've all come to  terms with the fact that he'll never be debt-free again. His daughter, the  medical student, works as a supermarket cashier. When I see him on the day  after my arrival, he, my father and I have a coffee together. Pepe says only  two words, "hola" and, at the end, "adios."
The crisis has changed him, and it's  changing Spain. Perhaps the country is recognizing that there are no shortcuts  to Europe, and no clever tricks. Simply introducing a hard currency, building  dozens of airports, rail lines and golf courses, and putting an A6 in every  garage -- that doesn't work.
Instead, the road is tedious and  well-known. It starts with education, research and the fostering of  entrepreneurs. The Spaniards can do all of this. They are a great people, my  people, but the crisis has shown them where they stand: at the edge of Europe,  not at its center. The real estate boom, cheap money and euphoria have seduced them  -- not because they are bad or lazy, but because they're people.
Translated from the German by  Christopher Sultan


 
